43 : Square
Title: Square
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Harry Potter / Ron Weasley
Prompt: Square
Word Count: 270
Rating: R
Author's Notes: Written for fanfic100 and posted at harryron.

The one hundred stories are inspired by Broke Back Mountain.

Ron looks back on one hundred memories of his life with and without Harry.

Enjoy.


Square
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I hadn’t felt this guilty when Ginny was alive; when I was betraying my wife and my sister.

But the betrayal hadn’t been all on my shoulders then, had it?

Harry had to take an equal responsibility when it was the four of us.

And I’d always thought it must have been harder when he did.

I was used to the dynamics of family life. Not that that usually involved shagging their partners. I wasn’t even tempted by Fleur.

Much.

Anymore.

But I was used to having a family, and knowing that sometimes they’d let you down, but you’d still be family.

Not that Ginny would have forgiven me, had she known.

Anyway.

Harry was an incredible father, but the extended family still didn’t come naturally to him. I know he’d agonised about cheating on Ginny. It didn’t stop him, obviously, but he suffered.

And then there was the sex.

The sex the four of us had.

I could come home to Hermione and not make comparisons; could see her long hair spread out on the pillow or across my lap and completely detach the experience from what I’d done with Harry.

But Harry, the poor sod.

Harry would go home after being with me and find himself caressing pale, freckled skin; find his fingers tangled in long, red hair as he thrust into an eager mouth.

It had always taken him a little while to switch back over and fit himself into his married skin.

But now? Now he was himself all year round. He was mine all year round, even when we couldn’t be together like this.


My Big Damn Table.